Try to get the answer through the Bible~
yes, i suffered a lot in God’s purpose. it is very hard for me to understand God’s purpose. I asked but got no answering. Finally, i received God’s words of Jeremish " i know you, i know you, before you in your mother’s womb." i feel peace now.
Yes, I am going through the difficulties of the pastoral life, that is, I was hurt from a sister.I was sad about it , but lately I’ve been praying to repent of my self-righteousness.I confess to God from my heart, asking him to forgive me for not forgiving people’s sins, and I really feel the change in my heart.
Actually I am in difficult situation now. Through praying, listen the words of God, I could gain grace from God, I could trust God and look the path of Jesus Christ.
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By the power of God’s Word, i believe when i am weak the power of Christ work in me at best, so i am glad to boast in my weaknesses so that the power of Christ may reveled through me.